So at the beginning of October I embarked on my final year of University, and decided to take two jobs alongside it and carry on making videos on my personal YouTube channel as well as running the blog. Let's just say that after 3 months I am a very tired person! However this doesn't mean I don't enjoy what I do.
I really try to make time for all of these things, alongside filming, dissertation writing, seeing friends and family. However this does mean I've scarified something I love the most which is 'me' time. Now giving up time to myself has stressed me out more than doing all of this work, I thrive on spending a few hours at least a day on my own and now the time I get on my own is bedtime - which I spend overthinking instead of doing the actual sleeping part.
But what I realised recently after some advice from a good friend of mine is that you do (as cheesy as it sounds) only live once and if you have nothing to show for it then what's the point? I do all of these things because I enjoy them and eventually want to build a career for myself. If it means I have another 6 months of stress then so be it. However I have now started keeping journal of the things which make me unhappy - I've found writing them down and not talking about them really does help. You let your feelings disappear into a book and you never have to worry about them again (unless they're ongoing of course).
So if you're wondering why there is less content recently on both here and YouTube, I'm not neglecting you I'm just trying to fit EVERYTHING into the weeks which are flying by. I shall get back on it soon, but tomorrow I'm going to have a bath and spend an hour thinking of nothing.
Amy x
